Monday, May 4, 2009

Time Lasts
As Long
As You
Feel It
Should Last.

the Outside
A Chaotic
Jump of Life

Me and Mandy...

... I'm Still Waiting

Why is it Never Enough Just To Live In peace.
Why won't It get Better in every pacing Day.
It's Now that We Pull and HATE.
But Were Never Satisfied With the outlook of Our Day.
I'm waiting Now for a Smile To Come appear Upon His Face.
They've all had Their Amazing Experience before...
But, will It ever get to Me,
Before It's to Late?

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Fathomlist: Impossible to see.

What is Writing?

Is it sharing your emotions?

Is it something you do to express who you are in Public?

Is it a problem spoken on a page?

Is it a feeling set free?

Why Write? Why Speak? Why talk? Why Breath?

It flows with happiness.

It's something that gets scattered across a face.
It's joy, and Fun It's something made for Me.


Thanks from inside.
Thanks from my heart.
Thanks for the faith that scattered a bright light from up above.
Denial wasn't an option
It was knowing that Life wasn't a mess.
An Unwilling lie,
from the beating in my chest.
And then,
Everything began again.
It was my life.

Just Making it Clear

You've inspired me.
You always seemed real cool.
You started to darken my sky with gray clouds and no light.
You make it clear who is your favorite.
You talk about giving a chance,
but you know,
Why don't you give us a chance?
I try to do my best,
but you always seem to put me down.
I try to be nice all the time but your remarks after,
are rude and unkind.
The one's that shouldn't be, are.
Do we not make your cut?
Do you think we are better then you?
I don't think I am.
I never feel like I belong
I'm a little glad Its gonna be over and I don't have to put up anymore.
It's just time to be fair.
I thought if I could write this down, then I would feel better.
I thought if i told you this, then it would be clearer.
If you understand, if you don't, its okay.
Don't try to change everything about me,
Like you are.
I'm not doing that to you.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


I still live life, but theres always a time where I have to fight for myself.
I ask everyday for him to be him again.
I'm still curious...
Will it ever happen again?
I've never felt the way I've felt before,
untill something feels dead.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

how are you?..
Alot better now that your here...

Its amazing how litttle tiny compliments make your whole dayy magical.
Even though its only saying a little.. it cheers me up just cuz...
=P no one will ever know whyy=]

Wednesday, April 15, 2009


You shelter me... I don't know why.
Who will shelter you?
Thats what makes me cry.

* Im not sure what to add on to this one... =}

Saturday, April 11, 2009

To: You Love: Me

The wake of your eyes,

The tears I have cried,

The smiles and journeys of our lives.

The games that we've played,

The jokes we have made

Simply satisfies my days.

The yearn that's inside,

My heart just dies.

The smiles and laughter from the past years collide.

The breath that I take screams your name.

The things you have done,

Make me love you even more then a forest could love the sun.

Thursday, April 2, 2009


90 miles away.. 90 miles to stay..

Was it the way you said my name,
Or the faith you molded with clay.

The hand you reached out at me for, customized my days

But when You left, it all faded away.

Its so hard to tell you...

I'm such a bad friend,
I blame it all on myself.
Your bad reputation,
Your Hypocritical Statements.
The bad things you do, Are like a lie that I want to burn.
The things you do aren't right, and maybe one day, you might realize.
I can't be a friend to a person not looking for a new light.
It's my fault,
But you get so mad. My emotions are tight in my head.
You don't understand what you do,
When you know actions speak louder than words,
One day look at yourself,
So You will find a New You.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

If You Knew It Wasn't A Lie... Would You Still Cry?

A Cute Poem A Friend Wrote ... =]

I stared into your eyes,

And I see a friend

Your hair Moving Swiftly

Your Skin so Perfect

A perfect Girlfriend

I guess You Never had the Same Feelings

But You Are Funny And Cheer Me Up

Thats All That Matters Now.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Never Let Go

I gave You My Heart You gave me your Soul, You are the One I Love and I will Never Let Go.


I gave You My Heart, You gave Me Your Soul, All That Is Left Is A Big Round Hole.


I feel I know That This song reflects what I am and The struggles I have been Going through in My life recently. Its A really really Beautiful Song... I know it's Miley Cyrus.. Who I hate.. but I feel this song is all My obsticles combined into music.

I can almost see it. That dream I'm dreaming but There's a voice inside my head sayin, You'll never reach it, Every step I'm taking, Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking but I Got to keep trying Got to keep my head held high There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb. The struggles I'm facing, The chances I'm taking Sometimes they knock me down but No I'm not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm going to remember most yeah Just got to keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on, cause There's always going to be another mountain I'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb There's always going to be another mountainI'm always going to want to make it move Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes you going to have to lose, Ain't about how fast I get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb
Keep on moving Keep climbing Keep the faith . It's all about The climb Keep the faith

Friday, March 13, 2009

Normal 2 Never Again

The Words of Heaven Was Calling.
To Think i Was About To Let Go Forever. To Think Of The Word Goodbye Ashamed My Own Heart and Feelings deep Down Inside.
One Minute the Skies Lit Up the Whole World and The Magic Appeared in Smiles, Then from the 60 Seconds of Pure Joy You had Just Experienced the Clouds of unconditional silence mimics the Earth that Your Body Stands on Every Day. The Tears that Wendel down my Face for Hours and Hours at a Time. My fear of Even Loosing Myself Over Something That Just Stood 5 Feet And 6 Inches In front Of Me, Was Life Itself. The Joy Brought To Us All Was Because Of Him and The Appreciation of the Man He Was Himself and Still will Be to this Day.

Too Always And Forever Love Your Grandparents


To write the words of my own imagination, is the castle i stand in every day and every which way.
So far away yet i hope one day i have it all for me to see what i was really born to see.